Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Gate of Joy


Click on photos to enlarge! A Ted Trimmer shot (below)

"The Catterpiller toward the End of Summer waxeth Volitile, and turneth to a Butterflie." - Bacon

The word 'Volatile' grows out of the Latin 'Volare,' "to fly."

Cooler "gang." His insulin & oxygen are in da cooler!

(below)





This is Frankie. (below) He lives in Waikiki with his Human
Companion, Robert H.



"My reading is hoarding, accumulating, storing up for the future, filling the hole of the present."

"Writing is a beautiful act. It is making something that will give pleasure to others."
- Susan Sontag (both)

At the gates of joy
a butterfly's shadow flits
or is it a shadow butterfly?
It's quieter here than I expected
the only pounding music
is coming from my heart.
Cleared - renounced - renewed
ready to go within
but no hurry - never again;
Trust the unfoldment
and loiter by the gate
Of Joy. A L O H A! Cloudia

Monday, January 5, 2009

Boat Living

"The sea pronounces something, over and over, in a hoarse whisper; I cannot quite make it out."
- Annie Dillard



"Home is a shelter from storms - all sorts of storms."
- William J. Bennett





"The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears, or the sea." - Isak Dinesen


"For whatever we lose (like a you or a me),It's always our self we find in the sea."
- e.e. cummings



"Praise the sea; on shore remain." - John Florio

"He that will learn to pray, let him go to sea." -George Herbert








In places where population is high, or real estate is otherwise dear, some folks live on the water, like the boat families of Hong Kong harbour or the artists of Sausalito. Honolulu homes and apartments are rather expensive, so people who want to live here must accept pricey accommodations that they would turn their noses up at elsewhere. Home ownership seems unreachable to the average person without a “family head-start.” When an old friend of ours asked: “Why don’t you buy so-and-so's boat?” My reasonable husband reasonably asked: “And do what with it?” Then our friend made a bold suggestion that has changed our lives by taking us off of the beaten path of normalcy: “You could LIVE on it.” He let that sink in for a minute. We HAD sailed around the Caribbean out of sight of land, and fantasized about living on the homey new motor-sailors at the boat show, but that boat?! Perhaps with a bit of (read TONS of hard, dirty) work? Hmmmmm. The politics of harbor life was another education all together! Our Island state has fewer recreational boat slips than many land-locked states back on the continent boast of. State operated harbors have been permitted to become shamefully threadbare over recent decades, and the wait-list to get a boat slip (let alone a live-aboard slip!) is something out of Kafka. Resourceful boaters have needed to develop clever strategies to survive the top-heavy administration, contradictory rules, communist-like level of harbor services, and arbitrary policies. A person buys a boat by private contract; the former owner remains the owner of record while the new person waits on the list for a slip. Meanwhile, the new owner is listed with harbor authorities as a “care-taker” of the boat and is therefore permitted to be on, and to use, the boat. Live aboard slips, a fraction of the total by law, are even more challenging to obtain. The day we got our slip we had been boat owners for several years, forced to relay every official communication, registration or whatever, through a disinterested former boat owner away on the mainland who was so “over all this” by that time. That day was something akin to being freed from slavery: we were our own people at last! Today I’m (still mostly) happy to live with my husband, our cat, and all my memories and demons, on board our 55 year old, locally built, cutter-rigged pinky-stern line island trader. She’s steel, like a solid old car (or a dumpster!). This is not the boat that comes to mind when you hear the word “yacht” but it’s functional, funky, and “home.” Actually, it’s the boat a child draws: mast, Popeye wheelhouse, high bowsprit, and three round portholes on both sides, port and starboard. Electricity, phone (and Internet), water, and even cable TV come aboard via hoses, cables & cords. Storms make for exciting times as the falling rain drives into the roiling sea all around us. Breezes stir us at the end of our ropes, winds rock us to sleep, and high winds handle our home like a petulant kid. But there’s no one upstairs, or through the wall (no humans anyway). There is a sovereignty about boats. “Permission to come aboard?” “DENIED!” At night it’s beautiful to be at the town’s edge, between civilization and the immortal sea. Jumping on board is entering a special world. Of course, there are unsavory “issues” no one wants to talk about: our “waste” is not merely “flushed” but must be contained and conveyed appropriately – enough said, except that it is NOT elegant to be carrying one’s night-soil or chamber-pot to the receptacle! The giant tractor trailer-sized diesel engine in my “dressing room” is not what you would see in the closet of a fashionista. But I do have time to read, to write, and a great story to “top” any posturing stuffed shirt that I may meet: I live on my boat in Waikiki. Shuts up airport boors immediately (Listening, Travis?) Sometimes I dream of a real closet, a real kitchen (instead of the tiny “camping” refrigerator, toaster oven, and microwave I make use of now).
My closest neighbors are reef fish like Moorish Idols, Trigger Fish, and the occasional sea turtle like neighborhood favorite “Patty” with her missing fore flipper. Oh! And Boxy, my pet box fish. He looks eerily like a big, soulful face, with brown expressive eyes grafted onto the front of a square fish body like a psychedelic nightmare. If he weren’t so sweet natured he’d probably really creep me out, you know?
My human neighbors are a special breed, too: boat people. Folks with nice boats who come down for recreation on the weekend; there are also those of us persistent and patient enough to finally hold coveted “live aboard” slips. And always there are cruisers: folks in serious boats who stop here while circumnavigating the globe via the poles, like the big, steel Russian (the boat AND the captain) that was here a while ago, or retired couples from New Zealand on their way to San Francisco (or vice versa). We also see seasonal cruisers; folks who call no dock their home, just their trusty boats, along with their extended networks of connections in little coves and indigenous villages around a world that tourists never get to see.
Boats that I have known, or just marveled at, are just now cruising up the Thames, through the San Juan Islands, Central America, or the smaller islands of Samoa. The bulk of humanity does NOT live afloat, so most of us who do have an interesting story about what lured (or chased!) us off of dry land and the steady life. It’s a bit like motorcyclists, or hot air balloonists: “How did you get into this?” Yes, the sea has always been a safety net, safety valve, or alternative, to societies structures and life’s responsibilities ashore.
The always immediate and changing eternal sea makes light of today’s “important” concerns. Things always look different out here on the water, off shore, un-tied. Even boats that rarely leave the confines of the harbor remain attached to solid land only by a slender line of rope, a rope that may be thrown at any time. Floating out here at the edge we have furled sails, the sleeping engine, full water tanks, even boxes of canned beans. We are ever ready to slip away on the tide that always seems to be flowing somewhere. else. Yet…yet we stay in Waikiki…
Yes, our home is constantly moving, bobbing, swaying, and heeling with the wind. Such a home nurtures different certainties about home and foundations. Our main attachments are to nature, and to each other: other boat people. We have learned that boat people will always catch your thrown rope and make it fast. They expect that you will do the same for them, that’s just the way of the waves. One day, the neighbor in the next slip will be gone, leaving only an empty space of water. Then a new neighbor in a new house will arrive to share our narrow dock to solid land. Boat people know that nothing is forever, except maintenance. Shipmates will sail on different tides at last, and nothing really lasts except the dear harbor itself, the frigate birds, sailing clouds, monthly jellyfish, and the sea itself, all constantly morphing, eternal with it’s ever changing light, spinning seasons, and our passing wakes stretching out behind us. Nothing else remains- except Diamond Head (that sphinx!), and the way we choose to feel about it all. Here at the edge of Waikiki.

Thoughtful Diamond Head shields us from the earlier dawn, letting us sleep in a bit, and Splash the harbor cat stirs in the pink basket of a little girl’s bicycle chained to the rack at the head of G – Dock. Little feline “Radar O’Reilly” will follow her hunger unerringly to a friendly early fisherman, McMuffin sharing tourist, or juicy trash can fish head. Then, satiated and casual, she will patrol the docks, keeping an eye on the Kolea and Java finches feeding on “her” bit of lawn. Then it’s time to snooze again, no doubt under the dark blue canvas of some neighbors covered boat, till it’s time to work for her dinner again, posing for vacation photos, and licking her paw in the afternoon sunlight. No one exactly “owns” Splash, but she has lots of friends, and lots of names, and is clearly too friendly and self possessed to be a feral wild child. She is simply part of the Ala Wai Harbor, part of our community.
Hard working Hilton, Ilikai, and Hawaii Prince workers fill almost every public parking space in the harbor on some days, like the morning tide rolling in, just as the hard working harbor residents leave for their jobs. And Stan the Man, who builds and maintains everything at the Hawaii Yacht Club walks his two miles from home, smoking like a narrow gauge Japanese locomotive, and saying funny-friendly things to everyone that matters as he passes.
Older (or younger!) couples whose very appearance screams: “Maine!” “Ohio!” “Stuttgart!” or “Beloit!” thoughtfully muse upon the tethered boats, and our alluring harbor bulletin boards where boats for sale, and crewing positions to Tahiti, are offered. Till the wife (usually it’s the wife) gets hungry for breakfast at the Harbor Pub and, clutching her discount coupon, drags her husband away from what “might have been” and ultimately back to their normal life elsewhere. Having fallen under the harbor’s magical spell a lucky, blessed few of us never leave. Like Splash the harbor cat we awaken to another gentle Waikiki morning. What will there be to eat today? Who will I smile upon or talk with on my slow progress up the beach this afternoon?

The Small Boat Harbor, where I live with Miss Kitty and my Favorite Husband aboard, marks the proper beginning for a walk down the length of Waikiki Beach towards Diamond Head and Kapiolani Park at the other, the “Diamond Head” end. On the opposite side of the harbor is a channel separating us from Magic Island & Ala Moana Beach Park: sort of our Central Park with a long beach and D.H. view instead of the Manhattan sky line. Ala Moana Boulevard is the highway that brings many visitors to Waikiki from Honolulu Airport, and it marks the inland or Mauka (towards the mountains) boundary of the park. Across the boulevard: Ala Moana Shopping Center, our giant open-air mall containing everything from Neiman Marcus, to Sears, to a unique food court, to specialty shops you won’t find anywhere else. I hope that I will awaken here in Waikiki as long as my boat, my mooring permit, my luck, and my body hold up. Each day here is unique in beauty. . . like all the others, just because it opens its petals here in magical Waikiki. So the white doves of Fort DeRussy, Splash the harbor cat, and me, we’ll hold a place for you under the palms, right in front of the Hula Mound.
Till then. . . I’ll be here. . . Walking (with sea legs) in Waikiki.
. .
A L O H A! Cloudia

Saturday, January 3, 2009

God Boxes



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Japanese Buddhist Temple; a few blocks- but miles away from Honolulu's Wal-mart.












"Soft drink and computer companies play the roles of deities in our culture. They are creating our most powerful iconography, they are the ones building our most Utopian monuments." - Naomi Klein






Temple Guardians









“All religions, arts and sciences are branches of the same tree."
Albert Einstein





"Kodomatsu" outside of a store. The Bamboo is strong, bound together like families should be, and the evergreen is for longevity, rebirth & growth. A Japanese New Year folk item popular in Hawaii.

Here in Hawaii we have a rather ecumenical approach to faith that is more common in Asia than in the West. Christian prayers are said in Hawaiian, Japanese, Korean, Samoan, Micronesian, and many other languages. Some Christians will participate in ethnic and cultural practices favored by their ancestors, so that we live in something of a religious "truce zone." Perhaps it's the tropical light, something in the air, or merely the familiarity bred by generations of living together on small islands, but we allow our faith to outgrow the boxes of custom & doctrine that He must keep to elsewhere. Yesterday, my favorite husband accompanied me to the Izumo Taishakyo Mission, a local Shinto shrine built so many years ago that the city and it's highways have grown up all around it. It is customary for such shrines to be open on New Years Day so that people may come for a magical blessing to assure good health and good luck in the dawning year. Though yesterday was January 2nd, the shrine remained open for meditation and the purchase of lucky amulets (omamori) & talismans (ofuda). A Shinto priest was present to welcome us. As we took off our footwear to enter, I enquired about the availability of the blessings which are somewhat akin to REIKI, Qi Gong, or other "energy treatments" (as complementary medicine and the institutes of health refer to them). I was disappointed when he told me that the traditional blessings were usually done on the first day only. Then, pausing, he seemed to re-consider. Taking up his ceremonial pole, from which sheaves of folded rice-paper cascaded, he danced and dangled it above me, touching my head with it, as a profound gratitude for Mystery, Magic, and the ways of my fellow Earth passengers filled me. It was gratitude to the One Source of Love (call it what you will) for so many years of life, for the dawning of a new one, for EVERYTHING! Next, the priest repeated these actions over my husband's head too. Then we two sat together, holding hands, as we admired the art and antiques of the shrine, and imbibed the healing energies of peace therein. We departed in reverence, and well-being. The label on the "box" we had visited was of less significance than the gift of mindfulness that we had received. What ever box YOU keep your God in, if your box if filled with mystery, or even if it seems "empty;" I salute you with my best wishes for healing, magic & joy. "I'm just a soul whose intentions are good - O Lord please don't let me be misunderstood." Rock Lyric

A L O H A! Cloudia


































Friday, January 2, 2009

Hope Duels Fear


"A new dawn" by Ted Trimmer

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"New Year's Day is every man's birthday."


- Charles Lamb


"Ring out the old, ring in the new, Ring, happy bells, across the snow: The year is going, let him go; Ring out the false, ring in the true."


-Alfred, Lord Tennyson





"I think in terms of the day's resolutions, not the year's."


- Henry Moore


Top of Waikiki: cool restaurant!

"I made no resolutions for the New Year. The habit of making plans, of criticizing, sanctioning and molding my life, is too much of a daily event for me." - Anaïs Nin
Here in Hawaii we watch the New Year march across the Earth from Kiribati, and on through: Oceania, Australasia, Asia, Europe, the U.S. Atlantic Seaboard, Chicago, Denver, Seattle, and finally - it's our turn! As a new year begins, it is natural to look back and also ahead. At this unprecedented moment in history, fear & hope are duelling in hearts all over the world as never before. New ways of thinking about our lives are emerging from our common longings. "Truly appreciate what you've got," is one of these emerging new "Memes." "Humankind does not live by bread alone," is an older version of that same thought. When we really "get" how little it takes to be deeply content - actually HAPPY - then our freedom begins! One last quote that I believe hints at the way:
" Broaden your mind enough and you necessarily come to mysteries that are so much bigger than everyday concerns that to encounter them is to experience awe, to experience the sacred." - Tenzin W. Rinpoche
A L O H A! Cloudia

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Obama Hawaii New Year's Eve

Yesterday, the president-elect (and local son) took his children to the Honolulu Zoo to see the baby tigers that we visited last week.
http://comfortspiral.blogspot.com/2008/12/hanukah-tigers.html






Fireworks are "cultural" in Hawaii with our large Asian (and part-Asian) population.


Professionals will "pop" fireworks too, but most locals will be at home making their neighborhoods a smokey fairyland.

Red "Ahi" tuna is lucky food!






Some local families are pounding mochi rice in Usu with mallets; "THWACK!" Don't hit uncle's hand!!


"Year's end is neither an end nor a beginning but a going on, with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us." - Hal Borland



"For last year's words belong to last year's language; And next year's words await another voice. And to make an end is to make a beginning."
- T.S. Eliot



"And ye, who have met with Adversity's blast, And been bow'd to the earth by its fury; To whom the Twelve Months, that have recently pass'd Were as harsh as a prejudiced jury -Still, fill to the Future! and join in our chime,T he regrets of remembrance to cozen, And having obtained a New Trial of Time, Shout in hopes of a kindlier dozen." - Thomas Hood


"Good resolutions are simply checks that men draw on a bank where they have no account." - Oscar Wilde


"But can one still make resolutions when one is over forty? I live according to twenty-year-old habits." - Andre Gide



"A happy New Year! Grant that I May bring no tear to any eye When this New Year in time shall end Let it be said I've played the friend, Have lived and loved and labored here, And made of it a happy year." - Edgar Guest


"Of all sound of all bells... most solemn and touching is the peal which rings out the Old Year." - Charles Lamb



"Every man regards his own life as the New Year's Eve of time."
- Jean Paul Richter


"Be always at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let each new year find you a better man." - Benjamin Franklin



"May all your troubles last as long as your New Year's resolutions."
- Joey Adams


A L O H A! Cloudia

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Boat Living & Davo's Art

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Kitty drops in
Flowers from Saturday's Kau Kau Christmas Street Lunch (link to post below)http://comfortspiral.blogspot.com/2008/12/gilding-pill.html

Davo's Silk Screen "Smooth #4"



DAVO http://www.davoart.net/aboutMain.aspx

"The corner of a room is populated with 5,000 beings of which we know nothing." Tibetan Spiritual Saying


"There is no 'empty' space anywhere, even between the stars. Processes and events are occurring in multiple dimensions everywhere."
Brief synopsis of the latest findings of physics


Many of you kind visitors have asked about "life aboard." It is such an encompassing topic, unfolding on so many levels, that it is almost TOO daunting to describe. Suffice it to say, most of what comes to the average "land person's" mind about living on a boat is WRONG. This ain't no cruise ship! Where would I even begin?! As Dr. Johnson said: "A sailor is a man in jail with a chance of drowning." Conveniences that most "housed" folks take for granted are lacking afloat, such as space, flush toilets, and SPACE! Sometimes it is glorious, sometimes it feels like being floating "trailer trash." I have even described our cement and steel home as a "floating dumpster." And none of this even addresses the finer points of living in a State Operated (poorly) Facility. PLEASE, those of you who have questions, be kind enough to send them to me as comments to this post, and I will build my little Blogpost Boating Biography around the things you want to know: from basic (waste, power, Internet) to personal (nice an romantic, eh?). As you might ascertain from today's quotes I have been exploring Tibetan Spirituality & Medicine and discovering fascinating insights as well as illuminating parallels to other traditions, religions, and cultures. With the intellectual "permission" of our cutting-edge physicists I have been opening myself up to the energies and influences around us, especially in nature. What better place than Da Beach? As I deepen my friendship with this place that I love, it becomes increasingly natural to me to feel kinship with an "animate" world. The inert "stuff" of our modern view is revealing itself as personal, playful, dignified, and a repository of insight & healing. The green Ko`olau Mountains are a constant cathedral above the town; inducing reverence and perspective whenever I raise my eyes "unto" them. The sea's a ceaseless chorus. Birds are clearly messengers from high places, and sky gazing is grazing in a library of light and wisdom. . . Oh yeah! And Davo. I had the serendipitous pleasure of crossing paths with the Maui artist yesterday. Above, you see him holding a favourite print from his latest project. He told me that this one is titled "Smooth" because he was listening to pal (and part-time Maui resident) Carlos Santana's eponymous song as he created it. Then he generously gave it "unto" me! ("You can sell it if you need the money." he told me) Davo's work is at the IMAGES Gallery on Front Street in Lahaina http://www.imagesinc.com/ . He told me that his little hale ('hah lay') on it's little acre shares a boundary with Oprah's huge property. . . So send in those boat questions! Here's the teaser: The day after we moved ALL of our possessions aboard, Hurricane Iniki drew a bead on Waikiki. What happened next? Stay tuned! Just don't ever get into line behind me at the bank ;-) But DO return here to Da Spiral often. Your visits and your comments, even just a "Hi" are wonderful messengers of "Aloha" along with angels and all birds . . . .
A L O H A! Cloudia

Monday, December 29, 2008

The Merry Year





"The merry year is born
Like the bright berry from the naked thorn."
- Hartley Coleridge


Each age has deemed the new-born year
The fittest time for festal cheer.
- Walter Scott



"We spend January 1 walking through our lives, room by room, drawing up a list of work to be done, cracks to be patched. Maybe this year, to balance the list, we ought to walk through the rooms of our lives... not looking for flaws, but for potential."
- Ellen Goodman




“The Fish Dance

It’s season again for the fish dance. Next time you are walking the Ala Moana Blvd. Bridge over the Ala Wai Canal, pause on the mauka (mountain) side to check out the intricate maneuvers underway by dozens and dozens of fish. The first time I noticed, I thought it was a flotilla of leaves on the water. Then I saw the do-si-do, the alaman left, the schools splitting into separating spirals. Fish are packed so close together that some in the middle are pushed partly up and out of the water. All together now! What are they doing? I don’t know. But back when I was taken to see Nureyev dance at Lincoln Center I didn’t need a knowledge of ballet to be amazed by the way he hung in the air at the arc of an unbelievably high leap. Well these tilapia are just as absorbed and expert in their corps de ballet. Spawning? Eating? Hula competition judged by mantis shrimp? I just don’t know. Do you? There are great new parking improvements at Makapu for those hiking around the slope to the lighthouse. Stop at Costco’s snack bar in Hawaii Kai for hot dogs, pizza, chicken salad, drinks on your way, and then you can park safely away from traffic and walk a paved path around the slope to the amazing view. Tip: full moon night hikes here are memorable and special! If you are inside Costco, or Star Market, or any food store with a fish department, try buying what you see the locals buy; even squid or seaweed won’t kill you. And if you see opihi you’re in for a special treat! It’s expensive for a reason. Like the song says: “Opihi man in the sun, opihi man grab your bag and RUN! Opihi man another swell is coming your way.” People do drown harvesting these delicious morsels from the tidal zones of sea cliffs; in fact I’ve heard this innocent little Hawaiian mussel called “fish of death.” Worth a taste? Continuing up the Saturday road through Waimanalo, with its miles and miles of white sand and turquoise shallows just yards from your car, I saw that the beach park was humming with activity. When you pull into a beach park among all the local folks who are spending their day off with their families do so humbly and with a good spirit. Easy does it. Remember: weekending families are not cultural exhibits or chamber of commerce employees. Regular folks work very hard simply to make it here, and they enjoy their weekend relaxation just as you do. Please understand that the closest beach is like the neighborhood’s living room, even though it’s “public.” Be laid back and you’ll probably meet some new people, or even be welcomed in inimitable Aloha style. Offer to share your stuff first, like a juice to a child, or a slice of pizza to the guy sitting right next to you. I could recount many stories of visitors being invited to the baby luau, the wedding up the block at somebody’s house, given deeply personal tours, or even invited to stay over. Nice people do find each other, bad attitudes: just keep driving! Back in Waikiki, joining the throngs walking, running, gawking, biking, unloading surfboards on Diamond Head Road, I got to thinking that to visitors, DH is a famous visual emblem. But it’s so much more than that to us; for example, we use it to describe seasonal conditions: “Look! Diamond Head is so green!” (Lots of rain) or brown (lots of no rain). To locals it’s not just visual though, ole DH is like a beloved uncle that we playfully climb all over. We hike the trails and enjoy the view FROM Diamond Head (his shoulders). We sit on his lap: DH park one and park two, green oceanfront enclaves made peaceful and private by their lack of parking, brides are photographed here as limos hover. At the foot of the cliffs, below Diamond Head Road, are intimate little beaches where naturists and meditators can be left in peace. So you see, we locals don’t just SEE DH; we play with it, smell the flowers, hear the surf and enjoy the birds. And at the right time of year it’s perfect for spotting whales spouting and splashing out to sea. Even the tightly scheduled tour van groups that pull into the lookout seem to hush at the majesty of the vista, as their harried drivers relax for a smoke. It's the perfect spot to “watch the submarine races,” or simply to loose the grip of hours and minutes. . . Misty Technicolor clouds blowing over the mountains, blue heron, red sails in the sunset. . . Hot shower, cold beer, and warm welcome; how can every pau hana (after work) be uniquely wonderful? Guess they’re just like snowflakes. . . Remember snowflakes? In Hawaii it’s OK to smile at others. Everyone is beautiful here- but it’s from the inside. In our tropical climate makeup runs, but true aloha just glows through your expression, your skin, and your face, like a light from within. . . SUPER FERRY! The Alakai, the largest all aluminum ship built in the USA, is here. We can now take our own vehicles to Maui. We all need to get out on the water sometimes. . . just so we can take our turn. . . doing the fish dance. . . Aloha! Cloudia